Just thinking

So, this is supposed to be a blog. Well, it's 3 a.m and my mind is just a racing. Here are the Holidays again and the feeling of joy and laughter surround our home daily. We watch Christmas movies after dinner each night and then head over to the neighbors' house for a friendly game of Phase 10. We have listened to the Chipmunks songs over and over for the billionth time but still love to hear it again. The kid's favorite is "All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth", and "Shrek the Halls." I just got finished searching for addresses on the internet to get my Christmas cards out on time and now the thoughts of family are creeping up on me.

I just wonder how long it's going to take everyone in this family to realize just how precious life is. To realize that we all make mistakes, we all make poor decisions at times, and we all feel left out one way or the other. Regardless of those feelings, we have such a big family who are all still generally healthy. We have many grandchildren now running around, and one who will be running around soon. We have a connection to each other that regardless, will always be there. Yet for some reason there always seems to be someone not talking to someone, or someone saying hateful things about each other or to each other. I quite honestly don't understand how so much anger can just build and build and be harvested for so long. Christmas is about family and about the celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour. Sure I'm not the most religious person in the world, but regardless of what's ever happened I have tried to just turn the other cheek no matter what people have said or done to me. Anyway, I have had this on my mind for a long time and have just wanted to put it out there. Our family is all we have. One day there will come a time when there will be regret for the nature of our actions. I regret many things and have apologized and I am at peace with myself. I know the world will never be perfect, but with so much anymosity, how could it get any better? My hopes and prayers for this Christmas season is that we are all able to realize that we are just human beings, and that all flaws aside we are still family. Time flies by so fast and what a waste it would be to spend that time harboring grudges, resentment, jealously, or bitterness. I know I am thankful for my whole family and I am also sorry for many wrongs that I may have committed against others or said things that hurt others, but I have asked for forgiveness and he has forgiven me.